Monday, April 19, 2010

The Fear


My pastor, Nate, was speaking this past Sunday about the 'fear of God' vs. the' fear of man'. Using King Saul and King David as examples of these kinds of fear.
Saul was feared the people he was leading instead of the Lord who put him there. David feared the Lord who created the world and not the giant, Goliath.
It was a message for me.
I have been thinking about my fears in life, and God provided this message at the right time.
I've been afraid of not pleasing my family, both my husband and parents. In not anticipating his needs and putting these expectations on myself to make a perfect meal, or spending money in a way he thinks is wise.
With my parents its the same way. I want them to think nothing is wrong with my family, and whenever I'm visiting them I feel that I should do things for them and spent every minute with them.
But these expectations I put on myself just make me miserable. I set myself up for failure, every time! No wonder my plans never work.

So, i've also started reading this book by Francis Chan, 'Crazy Love'. I'm just at the beginning, the Crazy part. He is talking about how Majestic God really is, and I think that meditating on these facts is helping me understand what the fear of God really is.
He is perfect "holy, holy, holy"
He is eternal
He is all-knowing
He is all-powerful
He is fair and just

So, this is just a start but this is what I am searching for. I know it is mind blowing and overwhelming. But I need to know this about Him!