a dream

Last night at life group I was talking to



someone and they were saying that they want their baby( one day in the future) to look just like Josiah, big eyes, really cute, etc.

And just then I remembered a dream I had in high school about a baby. In the dream I was a teacher and my baby was running all over the school, like a nymph, bouncing around in the air.
And, he/she looked like this doll kewpie! Crazy. I wonder if that is prophetic?


Patrick thinks that Josiah is like Curious George. I can see that....

my top 10 to do list for the summer

10. play tennis ( I don't know how but I have two rackets)
9. spend the day at Mt. Shasta City
8. picnics at the many parks
7. having tea with friends at one of the tea shops here in town
6. swimming at Whiskeytown Lake
7. hiking and swimming in one of the many water falls we have around us.
6. thrift store shopping
5. water balloon fight with the stirring kids!
4. jewelry making
3. making crafts
2. stirring mom's group!
1. BBQ's!!!!!!!

the awkward night

What kind of situation makes you feel awkward?

Well, to answer my own question here it an example...
The other night Patrick, Josiah and I went to the Olive Garden for some nice family time, and who should be sitting at the next table?
my gynecologist and his family! WOW....but you know he is a nice man, and the family is nice and so we are fine, and then Josiah is being very loud; happy but loud and there wasn't much we could do.
So, as we are eating and enjoying ourselves, as much as we can, our waitress comes over and tells us that the family at the next table has paid for our dinner! WOW! and so we tell them thanks and smile and stuff, and so they leave.
Meanwhile, we told the waitress that it is Patrick's birthday and so she is planning on having people sing... but Josiah is getting tired and so we are going to just go home, and she comes over and asks us if its OK that they sing, and Josiah starts crying!
So we start to leave but there is no bill... what do we do? Say goodbye?
Oh, and also we had only 2 dollars in our pocket and that is all we could leave for a tip! (cause we were gonna pay with our card) Horrible, I know!
That is my definition of awkward.

women's retreat reflection

Josiah is wearing this little outfit a mentor of mine gave him. The bib says "veal the new beef" because in high school my nickname was 'beef'.
I know its weird, but I think its funny.

So, the women's retreat this weekend was just what I needed, sometimes you need to get out of the situation you are in in order to see what is going on. That is what happened to me. Here are a few things I learned. We read the Martha and Mary story in Luke 10 over and over again, focusing on different aspects of it.

1. I am distracted easily. This is the word that I identify with most.
2. "Lord, don't you care...?" (Luke 10) This is the phrase I am saying constantly, and Martha says this in the scripture.
3. I need to be who God has made me and that is a leader. If I choose not to use my leadership skills, I am disobeying God, and letting others down. For example, if I am in a setting in which I should use my leadership role and refuse, what happens is others around me also seem to loose confidence in themselves and their gifts. I see this happen when it is a spiritual setting, or even just friends deciding what game or movie.
4. well, this one I learned last week on Dan's blog about waking up intentionally apposed to having circumstances wake you up.

I'm glad to view my life in a new perspective, it is exciting and clears up the fogginess I have been feeling.

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